The animal I have become....
Well, my best friend in life has a blog on here and in order to post comments in her blog I needed to join up. Yet while I have a blog elsewhere online, I am not nearly faithful enough to it and I think perhaps this one will spark my loyalty and become a dumping ground for all my thoughts and fears.
On August 6th I am due to give birth for the first time (full term that is). I've survived 3 miscarriages and its hurt me deeply, but this little light bringer that I carry is only about a month from her/his appearance (I know Tam - a girl :>) and everything is wonderful. Except that due to placenta previa I may require a c-section. So on Tuesday at 10:10 am I have another ultrasound (#5) to determine where my placenta has decided to go. Lets keep our fingers crossed for no c-section. I think I have enough on my plate without adding surgery to the list.
I am madly in love with the father of my baby - however he already has a child by someone else and he doesn't really want the one I carry. But thats ok, I have more than enough love to share to make 6 or 7 parents. I have waited so long for MY chance to raise a child and damned if I'm not going to do it right. Sure we all make mistakes, but I will never force my child to believe anything he/she doesn't want to. Freedom of religion, sexuality, physical appearance. Too many parents try to force their children into these molds they have created in their own minds and then become disappointed and bitter when it doesn't work out that way.
Anyway.... this "quick" first blog has quickly become quite long so I will sign off for now and write more later about Angel, King, Moe and the other animals who reside in my world. Tata for now.
On August 6th I am due to give birth for the first time (full term that is). I've survived 3 miscarriages and its hurt me deeply, but this little light bringer that I carry is only about a month from her/his appearance (I know Tam - a girl :>) and everything is wonderful. Except that due to placenta previa I may require a c-section. So on Tuesday at 10:10 am I have another ultrasound (#5) to determine where my placenta has decided to go. Lets keep our fingers crossed for no c-section. I think I have enough on my plate without adding surgery to the list.
I am madly in love with the father of my baby - however he already has a child by someone else and he doesn't really want the one I carry. But thats ok, I have more than enough love to share to make 6 or 7 parents. I have waited so long for MY chance to raise a child and damned if I'm not going to do it right. Sure we all make mistakes, but I will never force my child to believe anything he/she doesn't want to. Freedom of religion, sexuality, physical appearance. Too many parents try to force their children into these molds they have created in their own minds and then become disappointed and bitter when it doesn't work out that way.
Anyway.... this "quick" first blog has quickly become quite long so I will sign off for now and write more later about Angel, King, Moe and the other animals who reside in my world. Tata for now.
posted by Tymber at 7:05 AM
2 Comments:
Hey chick,
Just a quick note to let you know that I got here ok...I will e-amil you later on...Love ya lots
Ari
Loved your post- how'd you get so smart about parenting- you are absolutely right about placing expectations on our children- guilty as charged- you will be a wonderful mother- you already are!! I Pray that all goes well as you welcome your daughter into this world-----keep posting---
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