What a day...

Ok so topic one will be Leah. She showed up here with my family after church today and proceeded to eat her face off and hog the bathroom for hours so she could get ready to go into town to go to... you guessed it, Trevor's. And my stupid parents were dumb enough to take her there. I cannot BELIEVE the bull shit of a couple of days ago and now they are taking her back there for more of it. I wonder how long before there are more phone calls made to this house from one of the two of them. The whole thing makes me sick. I can't stand the drama and then Mom and Dad feed right into it again. How about if Leah wants to go to Trevor's, someone else takes her??? Why is it our problem?? She has an ultrasound tomorrow and so everything is being dropped for her to go to this ultrasound. I just cannot wrap my brain around the fact that all the drama and the cops and the phone calls from her boyfriend and two days later and its like nothing happened at all.

I am so bloody cranky I can barely see straight. I could just HURT someone right now and I hope for peoples sake they stay the hell out of my face. I don't even feel like I can handle the people I like right now, let alone the people who annoy me.

Doug is coming over tonight after work and all I want to do is throw myself into his arms and hide my face and let him talk me down. He's the ONLY person who is safe with me right now. I need a back rub (I know I won't get it) but I need sex too and its making me crazy. I've never been so horny in my life. I'm told it's normal for increased sex drive in pregnant women. Some are affected by a decrease in sex drive, NOT MOI. So do I deny myself the man I crave?? Or do I allow it and feel bad tomorrow?? OR do I allow it and try to control it... or own it as what I need and not feel bad tomorrow??? I don't know what to do.

So I'll just have to update tomorrow on how that all goes. I can SEE how it will go though.... I'm too weak with him.

Keb (aka Krista - my biological sister, the mother of Jack) is SUCH a mess these days I don't even know how to approach her. She was CRANKY as hell the whole time she was pregnant with Jack and while she has days during which she can be nice, she's still a major bitch 98% of the time. I worry about her. She's so unhappy. She's single (THANK THE GODDESS) because she left the idiot father, but she seems to feel that she NEEDS a man to complete her life. And I am SOO not the one to be giving her advice on that subject right now.

Ok that's enough bitching for one blog. I have more to do but it can wait. I'm talking to my best friend on webcam and its a rare treat so I'm off for now.

Love you all.
Ter