Unfaithful....
This will be a short one. Learning alot these days about things that have occured in my past and affected me directly that I didn't get to know about until now. I'm really sad these days, it takes NOTHING to make me cry. Literally if I sit somewhere and think at all I cry. I need a hug so desperately that I don't even know what to do anymore. My family is having a baby shower for me tonight, I'm not looking forward to it. I should be I guess, but I'm not. I just never wanted to be here in my life and now I am and it's really hard. I'm totally exhausted - this pregnancy is wiping me. It's 11 am and I just got up, mind you I didn't sleep until almost 6 am. I miss being important to someone. I miss being held and kissed. Ok this blog is offically depressing. So I'll end it as is.
I miss who I used to be, not this sad lump of a woman I've become. I have a daughter coming and I have to suck it up, but part of me is so terrified I don't know where to begin anymore.
Ter
I miss who I used to be, not this sad lump of a woman I've become. I have a daughter coming and I have to suck it up, but part of me is so terrified I don't know where to begin anymore.
Ter
posted by Tymber at 7:08 AM
2 Comments:
Ter,
Alright girl, I know exactly where oyu are going to begin, and that is at the beginning. Somethings change and somethings end, but that is when things start all over again, it's the wheel, and this is where you are on it. It's alright for you to be sad, it's alright for you to not like where you are, those things are natural. what you have to remmeber is that you really haven't lost the woman that you were, hse's still there, she just needs a fresh start and to build on the wonderful person shes is..
Lots of Love to you chick*H*
Tam
Hang in there--- hormones are all over the place-- don't have to apologize--- it's a difficult time under the best of circumstances---you can't even begin to imagine the overwhelming joy and love you will feel when you hold your daughter for the first time--- there isn't anything to even compare it to-- you have a right to feel tired and exhausted and terrified--the beginning will take care of itself-- thinking of you!!
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