I LOVE HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!

Ok this is easily my favorite day of the year - and I cannot wait until next year when Mady will actually be able to wear a costume and be dragged door to door by her Halloween obsessed mother. I would dress up this year but without her being able to dress up too it would defeat the whole purpose. I couldn't find any small enough costumes or I would have dressed her up this year. She's so laid back I know she wouldn't have fussed.

Friday is needle day for her and pap day for me. I am getting my tubes tied ASAP so they will be booking me for that shortly. No more heartbreak for me. I have my baby girl and I wouldn't survive (mentally) loosing another one so I've decided to get rid of the whole possibility.

Ok I have to run as the kiddies are arriving now but I wanted to touch base. I love you all.

Ter and Mady

Forget? Sounds Good...

"they say time heals everything
but I'm still waiting..."

Still at Doug's parents. Hair is my natural color again (dark brown) and pretty much the same as Tam's color. Mind you - my hair is MUCH longer than Tam's :) Which Mady likes cuse she can grab it and yank. My baby is teething. Poor hon. I bought her a cold teether which she likes to suck and chew on - seems to make her feel better to press down.

I can't believe shes teething already - I always thought it was much later than this but apparently I cut my first tooth on the day I turned 4 months old. And Mady is two and a half months old already.

Still single and needing some male companionship but I don't dare in my heart of hearts turn to Dougie because it will just open up another chapter in the Ter and Doug Chronicles and I don't need to or want to do that. We've been down that road too many times already.

So as Tam and I have dubbed it, I am "H" (if you think about it you'll figure that out) and I cannot turn to the one who does it for me so I guess I shall just have to suffer in silence until such a time that I can deal with it.

I miss you all but I'm back on MSn if anyone wants to talk.

Love,
Ter and Mady

Had a Moment in Time...

Just have a moment of internet time and decided to use it to my advantage. I'm alive and breathing but barely at times. Staying at Doug's parents right now which is wierd but necessary right now. Mady is doing SOOOO well.... she's smiling and growing and learning.... *sighs* I'm in love. :) Anyway - I'm having terrible headaches and so I am now booked in for a cat scan to find out whats going on. Still planning a trip to Yarmouth (I need it desperately). I will be going back to the farm at some point, not sure how this will all work out. Will need to pick up my stuff once I find a permenant place. Anyway I must run. I miss you all terribly and I am barely coping without the ability to blog daily but we are getting a computer and high speed access in the next week or so. I'll be in touch when I can. I love you all madly.

Ter and Mady