You Won't Miss Much....

No updates on the house yet but I wanted to take a second and let you all know I won't be out of touch for long. I am buying a computer first chance I get and I'll be online. Mady is still thriving but she is terribly fussy today so I can't be on long but I wanted you to know that I am thinking about you all and I love you all deeply. I'll hopefully blog later on when I get a bit of time.

Love ya-
Ter

It's Kinda Hard to Talk Right Now....

Well, well, well.... thought I should take the time to blog seeing as how I'm sure my last blog freaked alot of people out. I'm staying at my grandmothers for right now, hope to be in an apartment by October 1st. So come that time I won't be online for a while, I won't have a computer and blogging and online stuff will only be on a opportunity basis. So my trip to Yarmouth is being put off for an unknown amount of time. Hopefully not too long, as Mady and I both have family and internet family there we need to see. So don't despair, we'll be down - it might just take some extra time to get there.

Probably going to end up in Eastern Passage or Woodside. There is a cute TINY house for rent in Eastern Passage that I am trying to get, and it's within my price range. Its not very big at all but then we don't need much. And any place I can rest my head at night and not have to worry is a good thing at this point. I will truly miss Keb and Jack but Keb has a car and she can come see me whenever she wants. The plan has been up until this point for mom to babysit Jack when Krista goes back to work in October - well I'm going to offer to do it for her as well, in case she wants another option. That and I would get to spend alot more time with Jack.

Patrick is all of a sudden behind me and driving me bat shit already so I'm going to sign off this thing and go back to my room but I wanted to let everyone know what the plans were and let everyone know we'll be ok.

BUT - if anyone in Yarmouth or wherever can find a good deal on a couch and chair set or anything else related to setting up house, we can move it through Armour for free. Doug works at Armour Dartmouth and my beloved Uncle Dale runs the terminal in Yarmouth, so if we can find some stuff down there, I can get it moved. This will work out. I have faith.

Love to you all -
Ter and Mady

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!

Ok this will be a VERY short and sweet post BUT I took Ms. Mady to the Public Health Nurse today so I could have her weighed because it was driving me NUTS. And guess what the little miss weighs???? Are you ready for this???

8 pounds and 1/2 oz!!!!!

I am SHOCKED and tickled pink. The nurse said I am doing an excellent job and Mady is doing amazing. It's only been 10 days since she was last weighed so we did the math and she is gaining 2.7 oz a day!!!!

Go Mady :)

Love,
Ter

Watching Her Grow....

So she's growing great guns, learning SO much and I'm loving her more and more every second that passes. She's so amazing, she knows her name and my voice now. She knows Dougie's voice. She likes having her feet rubbed!!! It's so cute because Dad rubs her feet and she has already learned when he is around if she flops them out, he'll rub them, so when she hears Dad's voice, out comes the feet. She is a tad spoiled but how can anyone resist her.

And right on cue, she's awake again. So I must run and attend the little princess but I wanted to ATLEAST post this much and let everyone know we're doing well and we're smiling. Doug is around off and on. He was here last night and he held me and he kissed me and I was in heaven. But I still mean what I said. We aren't permenant in any way other than we created her and she is the best thing I've ever done.

We're coming to Yarmouth around the first part of October, all my family is DEMANDING it - so anyone who wants to see us.... just a heads up :)

Love you all
Ter

Lips of an Angel...

I have so much new found respect for single moms. Don't get me wrong, I always had respect for them but now that I'm actually doing this... it's amazing how much goes into it.

Doug has been making noises lately, that perhaps he won't be going out West. I think he's far more enamoured with his baby girl then he expected to be. His main concern at this point though, is my finding someone new to share my bed and my life and him being left in the dark. But you know I lay awake at night with Mady laying on my chest and I think how much I would never want to go through all this again. So I've decided to get my tubes tied. I don't regret one thing that has occured - from getting pregnant, to having my baby girl to ANY of it but I don't want to do it ever again. And like I said before I'll get a BIG (extra extra large) dog and Mady and I will do our thing. I'll raise her and she can know her father for who he is and the rest of it can take care of itself. I love Doug far too much, I will never deny this, to try and be with anyone else or to even contemplate it. However part of me is starting to accept that we don't work, we will never work. We made an amazing little girl together and I am so grateful everyday that she exists but I think perhaps thats all we were supposed to do. The rest of it is volatile and painful and keeps going back and forth between us and I can't do much of it anymore.

Anyway - my little angel is awake so I must run.

Thinking about making a documentary of Mady's first year or so - and posting it online for ya'll to watch.... just an idea and wanted to see if anyone was interested in that or not.

Love you all -
Ter

I am SO Tired :)

So I have new pictures of Mady but Blogger has decided it doesn't like them or something. I can only get the two I have posted to even show up.

Anyway Mady isn't sleeping much at night so I must look like the walking dead at this point. I would love for someone to watch her for a night while I slept but at the same time, if she cried I would be awake so there isn't much point to someone else doing it. How old should a baby be before you let them try to self settle??? I'm getting mis reviews on that one. Also she's going through another growth spurt so I know where some of the crankiness is coming from. Plus she has a yeast infection, poor baby. Although the doctor assures me they are common in babies, just as they are in mommies, however it makes me feel like a bad mom. She's eating 5 oz. every 2-3 hours now. I cannot believe how fast she is growing. I know if I can see a change in her, then there HAS to be. Last weigh in she was 6 pounds 5.5 oz. And that was a week and a half ago SO.... should be a big change by now.

I must get caught up on everyone else's blogs when she decides to sleep and get some commenting done. Also I'll be back later to try again to post all the pictures we took yesterday.

Love you all-
Ter